Tuesday, May 5, 2009

La Mort

When I woke up this morning, I knew I had just been stabbed. The peace didn't surprise me, but death felt warmer and less painful than I expected.

And there was less blood... in fact, I couldn't see any. I could feel it. It was gushing over my hands and pooling beneath the small of my back. But where red should have been, there was nothing.

Even if I could have, I don't think I would have cried for help. It was a welcoming feeling, not really any fear, just confusion.

And then, just as I was about to die, the haze faded.

... sleep paralysis can be so much fun...


  1. Is sleep paralysis correlated with certain medications/combination? Have you experienced this before you ever took any pills?

  2. The first time I experienced sleep paralysis was when I was 16.

    I've still yet to figure out what triggers it -- if anything triggers it at all. I've experienced it when I've been heavily drugged. I've experienced it when I'm not on any drugs. I've experienced it when I've been sleep deprived. I've experienced it when I've had plenty of sleep. I've experienced it in every sleeping position and during every hour of the day.

    The only thing I've noticed is that if my back is to a wall, and I can see the entire room without having to move my head ('cause it won't move), then the episodes aren't scary -- in fact, they're quite fantastic.

  3. Oh, I haven't had sleep paralysis for a long time. But, oh, do I remember how much it freaked me out when I had it as a kid/teenager.

    My mom said once when it happened to her, she heard footsteps, felt someone touch her to fully wake her out of the paralysis, and then she rolled over and no one was there. And the footsteps sounded distinctly like those of a deceased uncle of hers.

    (do do do do--insert twilight zone music)