Shortly after my recurrent major depression hit again a few months ago, I decided that I didn't really believe in God and all those "no-see-ums" that once guided my life.
I figured I was on my own.
And you know what?
Nothing really changed. Things went on as normal.
Lately, though, I started to miss those things I once labeled as "spiritual." I started to pray, meditate, and what-not again.
After everything, I would say that I do believe in God and those "no-see-ums." And I believe God is there not to coerce, mandate, or dictate but to guide and supplement our lives -- whether we believe or not -- so that we will know what we can do to live the most meaningful lives.
Referring to Ned's question, "Tell us about your most memorable dreams. Who and what do they involve, what do you feel and what do you think they mean?" : I'm going to leave out, if you'll forgive me, the specifics of my most memorable dreams, the ones that left a strong impression on my mind, but they are a part of the reason why I do believe in things spiritual.
They left me feeling like someone or something is out there watching over me, concerned, and directing me.
As I look back on my life, it's difficult for me to believe otherwise.
The dark times in our lives help us appreciate the light...
ReplyDeleteThe reason I recognized the voice of the Spirit so clearly when I first heard it again, was because I had gone for so long without it. I realized it was something I had not experienced in a very long time...
Hey Andrew.
ReplyDeleteI am glad to see that you are able to once again embrace the concept and possibility of the spirit. :)
Right now I am sick with a stomach flu but once I am able to look at a computer screen again for a long period of time without flinching in pain, I will be sure to send you a few links regarding "Gnosticism," a spiritualism that focuses on direct access to God without the "do this" and "do that" of Protestantism.
As I read in another friend's post today I believe that the reason we have lost our spiritual foundations is due to the "Bible-only" approach that came out of the Reformation period. Such an approach is dangerous in that it promotes egotism (I am right; you are wrong), depression, and discord.
BTW, I sent you a response email a few weeks back.