Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Breaking Down

My mental health has been crap lately. Social interactions are becoming more and more difficult for me. My body just wants to sleep all of the time. My mind just wants to give up.

This seems to be the pattern for me. I do well for a few months, I take the time to ground myself whenever something triggers depressive or anxious thoughts, and then after a while it becomes more difficult to spend that energy to ground myself. I start to wear down until I just start to shut down.

As I look back, this has been the pattern for most, if not all, of my life.

Thank God for my boyfriend, [GMB]. He's the best thing in my life right now, and just the thought of his addictive smile helps push me to find the energy to make it through another day.


  1. My sweetheart definitely helped me through my last major bout with depression. I am so glad you have someone to help you through this.

    Andrew, I've been thinking of you a lot lately. I'm so thankful for you, who you are and all the incredible ways you've grown since I first came to know you. I will keep you in my prayers. I love you!

  2. Blessed are the ones who have a significant other to be their rock of strength in a storm.

  3. Some of it, at least for me, is related to all this wet weather. (Although it is good for snuggling and you do have someone to snuggle with--I'm jealous.) When the sun shines again, I'll be able to cope better. Hope the same will be true for you. Meanwhile know that you are respected and loved by many.

  4. If I could give you my happiness this very day, it would be an honor.

  5. wow..You are sol luck that u have such a caring boyfriend..I will pray for both of you that all your wishes comes in true..All The Best..

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