I’ve been having rather intense nightmares lately—nightmares where my parents and I are screaming at each other.
I obviously have a lot of pent up frustration and anxieties about my relationship with them.
I’m having a difficult time truly feeling loved by them, at least in the way they say. Their love for me feels so… cheap sometimes. I don’t feel like I belong to them anymore, like I’m their son.
I feel pushed away and abandoned.
I feel like closing the door and walking away. With my newfound financial independency I’m having to really fight against that temptation.
I am now officially employed by a company that can pay me a regular salary!
I’m both excited and terrified—for the same reason: it feels like life-life is beginning.
That is to say that I feel a stronger sense of responsibility for my future now. Before it was just, “Let’s make it to the next crappy day.”
Now, however, it feels like I finally have a future to start preparing for.
Before it was, “Meh, I have the money in my account, and it’s shiny; I’ll buy it!”
Now it’s, “Hmm… I don’t know, I should probably put that money away for something more important.”
It’s an interesting feeling, both thrilling and terrifying, both enhungering [sic] and nauseating.
It’s a new experience that I hope I’m ready to take on.
If all goes well, I’ll have a steadily paying job as a software engineer.
It will be interesting juggling this job with the dance academy, but seeing as there’s a potential family start-up in my life, I need to lessen financial risks and fortify my financial stability.
I hope that the Academy won’t suffer. I teach in the afternoons, so I’m rather confident it won’t.
Anyway, good vibes my way would be appreciated. I both really need and really want this job.
The correlation between the sun's cycle and Earth's temperature is strikingly convincing to me that the primary cause of global warming is the sun.
Don't get me wrong, though. I believe, 100%, that we are crapping up the protection we have from the sun. I am all for taking care of and improving the environment.
I'm just not convinced we are the primary cause of global warming.i worry about the taste differences between [gmb] and me
I love, love, love the sculpture on the right.
[GMB] pretty much hates it. His style is much more modern than mine.
He's also pro gay rainbow. I personally think it looks tacky and cheap.
That said, my worry is quite insignificant. I'm pretty sure we'd be able to find common ground were we ever to find ourselves decorating a house together.
For example, I think we'd agree on most things in the kitchen pictured below:
