Well, it's Christmas Eve... to be honest, I haven't felt very Christmas-y.
To be honest, I haven't felt very Christmas-y since high school -- before my days of deep depression.
This is actually the first year since high school that I haven't spent this time of year praying for death.
No, I take that back. 2005 was a good year when felt rather Christmas-y. I even baked three (four?) Bûches de Noël (one of them lactose free) for some of my friends and family. I even made mushrooms and flowers out of marzipan... mmmmmm, marzipan...
Anyway, I'm digressing -- me, digress? ... never... -- it's not that I'm full of "humbug" or anything. It just doesn't feel like Christmas this year. Maybe things will change as today and tomorrow progress...
Merry Christmas, Andrew!
ReplyDeleteNot praying for death, that's something, and I'm sure Christmas-y will come easily when you've got little ones in your home.
It's okay not to feel christmasy. Not praying for death is a great improvement. You have to crawl before you can walk! :)
ReplyDeleteSecondly, are you coming to Scott's house for New Years with all the other MoHo's? I am, and it'd be cool to meet you!
Your posts really make my day. I enjoy them very much. I am glad you are not praying for death. I don't think it would help much anyway. Keep up the posts and do have a Merry Christmas.
ReplyDeleteHey Andrew.
ReplyDeleteI am glad that you no longer seek death as you did prior. I know that feeling and it feels great to be out of that dark place.
This Christmas has been a quiet one for me. I am spending it with my grandparentsNot many presents this year, but I am glad nevertheless. Materialism has s+unted me to the point that buying 'things' gives me little pleasure. I instead am inspired by the /Holy Spirit to give to those organizations and those /people who have either been eprived of the economic747 opportunities I have been given, 4or to seek to end suffering. Amen.
pardon the typos up above, Grandma just started cleaning the keyboard out of nowhere and has messed up my typing.
But I am glad that you are in a better place this year and right now I shall say a prayer:
[i]Almighty God, I thank you for Andrew. I thank you that you have given him a spirit of love, of humor, of lovingkindness, those traits of a human being that makes a person human. Shine your light before him O God, may his path be illuminated with Your presence. Continue to show him O Lord that You are the Light and that the darkness has masked it not. You are his God and he is your beloved child. May his time of wishing for death be forever ended until that natural time prepared for all of us, and may Your love shine in his life. In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit,
Amen[/i]
May your day be blessed. If I may say, I feel blessed to have met you online. :)
Your friend and brother in Christ,
Andrew
Thanks, everybody; Merry Christmas to you all, as well!
ReplyDeleteI'm sure Christmas-y will come easily when you've got little ones in your home.
I'm counting on it! :)
You have to crawl before you can walk! :)
I'm thinking the exact same thing.
Secondly, are you coming to Scott's house for New Years with all the other MoHo's?
Chances are looking good in the affirmative, I think.
Your posts really make my day.
Thanks, that makes me happy. :) (see, I'm smiling, even)
May your day be blessed. If I may say, I feel blessed to have met you online. :)
Ditto.
Yay! We are glad you are coming!
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