One of my students told me the other day, “If there were a movie of your life, I would totally watch it.”
I laughed inwardly and thought, “If there were a movie of my life, 95% of it would be me in bed... and it would be rated G.”
Nonetheless, I did start thinking about that other 5% and what kind of a movie it would make. To be honest, it could work. But it would probably just turn into another one of those “coming out/coming of age gay Mormon stories” – because... well... that’s been the main plot of my life thus far.
However my life has been so much more than just trying to figure out this gay Mormon gig. Granted, it’s definitely been one of the greatest impacts on the way I view life, spirituality, and almond pound cake. But if I were to sit down and write the script for something that represented my life, I don’t think it could have a plot.
It would have to be a collection of thoughts, memories, snippets of writing, whatever I feel like adding. In whole, it would show my dramatic side, my zany side, my zen side, my gushy romantic side... it would show all of my sides (okay... maybe not all of them...), no one side necessarily weighted more heavily than the other... with perhaps no apparent point... except to entertain and hopefully inspire some sort of new thoughts for someone who may come across it. (... so, basically... a blog in retropost...)
That's my life, really. That, I think, is my purpose: to entertain and hopefully to inspire a new way of thinking in someone. I guess that’s why I became a teacher... of dance... and not philosophy... or Austrian engineering...
... I guess I’m still trying to figure things out...