[maybe I should keep it curt and blunt?]
I apologize for how long it's taken me to get back to you. I've taken a lot of time to prayerfully consider my request to serve a mission. After meeting with you and hearing your trepidation in endorsing me as a missionary because I'm gay (even though I've never even held hands with a guy), because I support gay marriage, and because I plan on taking care of my physical health in the least caustic way possible, I have decided that I do not feel safe putting myself under the complete care of those who are not completely concerned for my personal well-being. Such, I feel, would be irresponsible of me, and I know I would not be successful; therefore, I withdraw my request.
Although I would like to nevertheless return to church, I also feel it would be irresponsible for me to do so at this time as I feel the relationship between the Church and its gay members is emotionally abusive. I had forgotten the degree until I spoke with you earlier this year.
Now, I'm not resigning from the Church; however, I am requesting that the Church not contact me as I take more time to re-evaluate what is best for me, my health (emotional, physical, spiritual, et al), my happiness, and my productivity in life.
Andrew M. Pankratz