It is helpful to know that one isn't completely one's own.
I sent a revision, following the advice of removing the dramatic ending, of my last posted letter.
My parents haven't responded yet. I am extremely anxious.
I honestly don't know how I can be a member of my family as things are. Not being good enough for them is too damaging to my mental health.
... maybe I can learn to be okay being sub-par in their eyes...