Shortly after my recurrent major depression hit again a few months ago, I decided that I didn't really believe in God and all those "no-see-ums" that once guided my life.
I figured I was on my own.
And you know what?
Nothing really changed. Things went on as normal.
Lately, though, I started to miss those things I once labeled as "spiritual." I started to pray, meditate, and what-not again.
After everything, I would say that I do believe in God and those "no-see-ums." And I believe God is there not to coerce, mandate, or dictate but to guide and supplement our lives -- whether we believe or not -- so that we will know what we can do to live the most meaningful lives.
Referring to Ned's question, "Tell us about your most memorable dreams. Who and what do they involve, what do you feel and what do you think they mean?" : I'm going to leave out, if you'll forgive me, the specifics of my most memorable dreams, the ones that left a strong impression on my mind, but they are a part of the reason why I do believe in things spiritual.
They left me feeling like someone or something is out there watching over me, concerned, and directing me.
As I look back on my life, it's difficult for me to believe otherwise.