I’ve been having rather intense nightmares lately—nightmares where my parents and I are screaming at each other.
I obviously have a lot of pent up frustration and anxieties about my relationship with them.
I’m having a difficult time truly feeling loved by them, at least in the way they say. Their love for me feels so… cheap sometimes. I don’t feel like I belong to them anymore, like I’m their son.
I feel pushed away and abandoned.
I feel like closing the door and walking away. With my newfound financial independency I’m having to really fight against that temptation.