My friend sent me a link to the following site:
http://www.attachmenttherapy.com/adult.htm. I'm afraid I may have another disorder along with my clinical depression and anxiety to deal with.
I'm thinking I tend toward the "Anxious/Ambivalent" category of attachment disorder:
ANXIOUS/AMBIVILENTCompulsive CaregivingFeel overinvolved and underappreciatedRapid relationship breakupsIdealizing of othersStrong desire for partner to reciprocate in relationshipOverinvests his/her emotions in a relationshipPerceives relationships as imbalancedRelationship is idealizedViews partner as desirable but unpredictable (sometimes available, sometimes not)Perceives others as difficult to understandUnlikely to view others as altruisticDiscomfort with angerExtreme emotionsViews self as unlovableMood swingsTendency toward anaclitic depression (dependent depression)
It does make sense. I very strongly remember times in my youth when I needed my parents but they were busy taking care of the needs of my other million siblings. Hell, read through my blog the past few months, and you'll see examples of how what I need from my parents aren't met because of their religious beliefs.
I'm not "blaming the parents." I am recognizing, though, where my problem lies so I can resolve things.
Thankfully, I have an appointment with my counselor in the not too distant future to discuss things with her.
I feel sad for you and the pain you are having after your break-up with GMB. I am sending good energy and thoughts your way.
ReplyDeleteHappy Thanksgiving, if you can. :)
hugs, good wishes, prayers, love, positive vibes. I'm sending all these your way just in time for Thanksgiving. I'm sorry about your loss. I hope you will feel an increase of love from your many friends and readers.
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