As I've been evaluating my life these past few months, I've been noticing a significant difference in the quality of my life when compared to my past years. My attitude is now lighter; my ability to handle stress and anxiety has strengthened; I no longer fall asleep in tears of fear and hopelessness of the morrow -- on the contrary, I most often fall asleep smiling, anxious for the next day.
I am becoming more and more financially independent -- the aforementioned interview went well, and I got the position (which entails a $4.75/hr raise in pay and other benefits that were not included in my now part-time position).
I know I've mentioned this difference before, but things just keep improving, and I cannot equate it to anything but the love and guidance of God. I really hope my family will be able to recognize this improvement in my life and know that God has not forsaken me nor I Him. I know there will be some rough times ahead with them, especially once/if I find a spouse. I know some of them, if they were in California, would be actively pushing the amendment that would block gay marriage.
Such is difficult for me to think about; it's difficult for me to understand.
But I have hope for the future; I have faith that hearts will be humbled and softened, and I hope my future family will be a trigger for Christ's light to start making that change.
And speaking of a future family, I think I'm ready to start dating now... however, I don't really know where to look...